My Spring

Today I was asked by a friend how I had been. She told me to give her the 411 on Sarah, and so I did. I decided to let the words just go and see where they took me. Here are my favorite points. This is a little bit of what I learned about myself by just letting it go:

I've been flirting, and enjoying being single for the first time ever. I miss the attention of a boyfriend, I miss the touch, and the connection. I don't however miss much else. These are all things I'm realizing can be found with other people, and I'm willing to find them finally.

This is what happens when I'm left to my own devices. I become that girl who I always made fun of, who I always said things like "She did it to herself" about. But I don't mind, because now is the Spring of my life. I'm coming into bloom, realizing that I am beautiful, and deciding that this is all I ever needed. I realize now that I am wrong, that I will be wrong, and that mistakes will happen, and that I should not be ashamed or scared of them. That I am in fact going to grow up and out of this a better and stronger person.

I'm learning that life is what I make it, and I'm sick of making it all about someone else. It's my life, not yours, no his, not anyone else's. It's mine, and I should do with it as I please. Right now as I please is scary, and as I please is wrong, and as I please is probably not going to work out. But it's MINE, and for once in this life, I'm ready and willing to take it.